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Title: I Am So Sorry Miracle Baby Mine Summary: Not intending to do so, Dana Scully must make a difficult decision, since Mulder has had to leave. One September Evening, 2001 She had thought the man she saw beside William, in his crib at the time, was Mulder. But alas, it was Jeffery Spender and he had injected the infant with something and advised her it would be impossible for her to protect her son. This was going to be one difficult decision, causing her to lose more sleep than she had lost nursing William. She was wrestling with her mind for a few nights, her milk production was slowly sliding so much she had to resort to pumping as much as she could, and topping up with formula. Finally, she found herself in tears. What would be best for the baby? Run and hide? No. So one sad day, she contacted an adoption agency, did some investigating, and made plans to send her beautiful miracle boy somewhere safe. Her mother, brothers, even nephew Matthew and sister-in-law Tara would be sad. Brother Bill would find it absolutely distasteful, thinking the infant was named after either himself or their father, but her mind was made up. There was no other choice, he no longer showed any signs of otherworldly talents, but nevertheless it had to be so. She chose the agency and prospective families for days on end, until she found the right match. A childless couple who were hard working people on a distant farm would be best for him, she decided, and she knew she had no choice but to do what Jeffery Spender had advised after having injected him with magnetite, making William of no use to the aliens. As the days went by, too quickly than she wanted them to, the day way coming. On a sad Tuesday evening, she fed him, softly humming, and tearfully whispered, "I am so sorry, miracle baby mine. Your father and I will think of you every day, my prayers will include you, and your grandmother... I have to find a way to be as gentle as I can to tell her that you would be in danger if I raised you, even if your father safely came back. I know he will. Sweet dreams." She kissed him and gently placed him in his crib, weeping for hours until sleep befell her. It was a rather restless sleep. The Following Morning It was a sunny, warm day in Georgetown, but Scully's face and heart were deep and sorrowful. After feeding, changing, packing William's clothing and special cuddly toys, she placed him gently in his crib. Since she wasn't hungry, she showered and chose her clothing thinking, 'How can I tell Mulder this, if he safely comes back? How? And Mom and Bill and Tara?' It was agreed the social workers woud arrrive by around 9:00 and she was crying, getting it all out. 'He'll be safer', she assured herself. 'They won't know if I followed them.' The drive was long and sad. About an hour before their arrival at the Van deCamp home, she noticed a suspicious car en route. They were being followed. Well, since skinner knew the plan, he ensured that was taken care of. 'Good,' Scully whispered. The female social workers were surprised to see her when they had stopped for refreshments and William's feeding and changing. "Agent Scully?" a blond woman inquired. "Yes... I just needed one more chance to deal with this. I'm not backing out. Just a last good bye." "It's all right," the woman's brunette colleague asssured her, patting her on the shoulder. "I am so sorry, William." Scully kissed her baby one last time and drove off slowly. "This is best," she repeated all the way home. Several years along the way, all three of them would be a family. She had to believe it, and it was so. End Author's Note: Written for the "I Can't Keep You Safe Challenge" at The Nursery Files. Write a fic about Scully realizing that Spender is right. End Author's Note: prompt from Baby/Kidfic plot Generator:
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